The Gridiron
What feels real during and even in the aftermath of an intense body flair is that I push away the energy with all of my available strength. That I push and push and push yet harder and that I win only by the skin of my teeth. I prevail in each instance, only to believe that the next time I will not be able to do so again. That is the believed story. That is what it feels like for the body organism.
The construction of the belief stems from two observations. First, there IS energy felt. Second, actions (as well as non-actions, which for the purpose of dialog are still considered actions in this context) take place. The energy is felt inside the body organism. The actions seem to originate inside the body organism. So the afterthought, the conclusion (however erroneous) is that the body organism produced the energy and also authored the acts. No other conclusion could be made – IF we believe energy comes from inside the organism.
But does energy come from inside the organism?
I wondered about this yesterday during the flair. There were moments that it seemed that energy flowed on a very large grid. That this body organism was but a mere speck on the grid. Yet the grid station could not perceive the landscape of the grid and thought it was a remote energy station all on to itsSelf. This perception was challenged (or perhaps shifted organically) at times during the flare … at certain points there was a seeing that the energy traveled along the grid in a wide and very complex web of lights. In this moment of conceptualization I could see when a bolt was coming towards the grid station and I could see a zap leaving the grid station.
From inside the station however, it was not possible to see the complex energy transport grid. Only from this imagined macro perspective did the surge make sense.
I wonder then, if energy DID in fact come and go through this grid station on a much larger complex framework …. Could actions that seem to generate from inside this grid station really have been generated from inside, or is it possible that they too come from the gridiron?
Seems interesting to contemplate and experience for mySelf … does the gridiron exist?
Reminds me of the two years spent looking for “where the energy was coming from that made the sound that caused my Tinnitus?” All sound must be caused by energy, right? Why can’t I use the principle that Bose uses in their noise canceling earphones and reverse that frequency and cancel the noise? (One of the original applications for noise canceling technology was patented by Lotus Cars for a very low restriction car muffler-worked but expensive.)
That is what I searched for two years to find! In the Tinnitus Newsletter I purchased one issue gave me the answer. There was not energy! There was nothing causing the fine hairs in my ear to vibrate at that frequency. It was simply the nerves being activated without any vibration of sound. Can’t send a reverse energy or airwave to cancel what isn’t their!
Stopped getting the magazine and stopped thinking about solving the issue. Now that I am thinking about the sound it is loud and clear and a fixed frequency. However haven’t; heard it in a week or more because-I didn’t think about it. If I don’t think about it isn’t there! It’s like the question “if a tree falls in a forest and no one is around, does it make a noise? Well if I know there is really no noise do i have to hear it! Guess not!