The Big Game



Egoic Mind: Well I guess this one is a new symptom … is that a good thing or a bad thing?  My nose feels like it has some kind of toxic chemical burn on the inside of the nostrils and up into the sinuses.  How do I know if it is the beginning of an anaphalactic shock?

Gnani: And knowing?  What would that change now?  More story?  Taking action?  Does your ultimate demise differ if it happens in 5 seconds or 5 years from now?

Egoic Mind: I would like to think that it does.  That I’ll be more prepared in five years.  But ultimately that is untrue.  So what can I do in this moment to prepare for my death.  This body will die.  How can the mind accept its finale demise?

Gnani: Sleep insomnia stems from the mind’s unwillingness to let go fall away.  But you do that each night.  How is that so?

Egoic Mind: There is some mental reassurance that “I” will not die while I am sleeping, that the mind will wake up again in the morning and once again be in control.  The confidence that I have in that story allows me to fall peacefully asleep each night.

Gnani: So what if I told you that YOU will not die when your body lays down for the final un-encumbrance?  Can you picture a movie on the screen that is being filmed from multiple camera angles all at the same time?  Sometimes you see through the eyes of the hero and sometimes you see from the eyes of a passerby or even from up above looking down on all of the characters.  When the body you now have ceases, nothing will be lost.  The scene on the screen still continues from simply another camera angle perspective.  The vantage point changes, but life … what you are at your essence does not change.

Egoic Mind: That’s a new metaphore.  And I am not sure I can grasp that yet.  Can you expand upon that for me again?

Gnani: Imagine a football game, the super bowl if you will where there are cameras at every inch of the field.  There is even a blimp camera for aerial shots of the big game.  The sports casters in the press booth have special cameras and the referees can look at replays on portable displays brought to the sidelines.  Think of all the cameras that the fans have in the stadium.  Sometimes there are even microcams built in to the helmets of some of the team players.  There are literally thousands of camera angles capturing the wide and the close-up views of the game.  For some the game is about the football in play, while others set their sights on the cheerleaders, concession stands, other fans or the game clock.  Each of the cameras takes in a slightly different view of the game being played.  There is not one iris that captures all that is.

The game itself is unaffected by the cameras.  It matters not, except perhaps to the sponsors, who is looking.

At this point in your awareness, you believe yourself to be the camera instead of the game.  You see yourself as the small isolated video stream of consciousness that runs and re-runs through your mind.  When the body is finished and discarded the illusion of your confinement becomes clear.  What you are is the game itself, the whole game, the whole.

You can trust in this knowing of what is beyond the camera’s lens, just as you can trust to let your mind drop away each night as you close your eyes and embrace the no-mind of deep sleep.

Egoic Mind: Thank you.  I can see now the big picture.

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