Thankyou



It was one of those days when the unannounced waves of illness came in droves.  I found myself wanting so much to push them away, but yielding best I could in the moment that only time was going to provide any relief at all.  I reminded myself that it is only opportunity to see things that are at other times unavailable. For it seems there is something to learn when I stand at the portal of pain that can not otherwise be experienced without two feet firmly in place on the welcome mat.

So I did my best with each rise and fall of the surge to stay alert to what was happening and not be carried off too far by drifting tides of the mind.  No small feat, as my mind wanted so to amp up the pity party with thoughts of despair and drama.  Time and again, I returned to the sensations and the surroundings that supported my body … the bed, the air, the sunlight coming in through the window.  Everything was available to me even in this space of discomfort.

By nightfall, my body and mind were both very tired from body surfing the swells all day long.  I turned off the light in my bedroom and only the glow of my screensaver cast dim shadows around my bed.  I thought perhaps I should try some EFT tapping to relieve the pain and angst, but after a few rounds decided I should instead just watch and see what was available to me in that moment.

Instantly I was overwhelmed with a desire to pray.  It had become easy for me now to be grateful, even when I was in pain.  Soft words formed in the empty space of my mind.

Thank you so much for this experience
For allowing me to see and feel all of these things
Thank you for the opportunity to recognize the amazing world in which ….

Just then, I realized it was not the egoic mind in celebration of the Divine that conjured up these words at this time.  It was the Divine thanking this body/mind organism for the chance to bring to the light only that which can be experienced through a physical body in the dimension of space and time.  I was the vessel — Graced in Gratitude.

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