Something Is Happening

Egoic Mind: Something is happening. Bowels are stirring … energy surges in my biceps.   There are tears in my eyes.  Feels like a storm on the emotional horizon!

Gnani:  Dance in the rain and body surf in the wave.  It is good to be alive.

Egoic Mind: It doesn’t feel so.  It feels small, separate, and vulnerable.  I hate this when it takes me over like I have no control.  I have no control!  I hate this, even after all I know, all I have experienced.  The motions of this physical body still sweep me off my feet.  What is the teaching?

Gnani: Look inside.  What do you really feel in this moment … Not what you fear but what you feel.

Egoic Mind: Strangely … I feel proud.  There is a sense of confidence, like things are changing in a direction that I favor.  It feels good.  I am trusting more … Fearing less.  I didn’t notice that before in the midst of the pain.   It’s all good.  Or is that GOD?

Gnani: Is that all?  What about in the space of stillness?

Egoic Mind: Hmmm … Acceptance.  There is a deep sense of acceptance of this moment … just as it is.  Not wishing anything to be different.  Richard is walking.  Martha’s asleep.  Patricia is having tea with a friend.  Dan is at his Dad’s.   Dogs are at my side.  It is all as it is, with not even a hint of desire for it to be otherwise.

Gnani: And the body?  What does the storm and seas look like now?

Egoic Mind: Oh my, I didn’t notice, it shifted.  There are now, calm waters and peaceful night skies.  It’s all good … God.  I got it right now.  It’s all God.  It IS all God.