Happy Birthday to Me!

It’s free admission to DisneyLand on your birthday!  But I won’t be venturing out to the magic kingdom … not this year, not yet.  But perhaps once again one day as my body heals. 

What I do have on this day of rebirth is the first blanket of snow on our mountain tops that I can see from my bedroom window.  What a gift from the Universe indeed.  Southern California does snow right!  We can see it on the mountains from the comfort and warmth of our valley homes but we never have to shovel to get to our cars like we did when I grew up back east.  Brrrrrr.  I remember those days, the bitter cold, the wind chill factor and the frost bitten toes. 

I was actually quite stunned this morning when I noticed that a little bird bath in my yard had a thin layer of ice floating atop from the chill we had during the night. What a gift to make me giggle inside. In only moments the thin ice melted in the warm sun when I picked it up for this picture.  Ahhh yes … we do snow right.

I decided that I wouldn’t make any plans or expectations for myself today.  I would not tell myself to be brave when the POTS flairs hit.  I wouldn’t coax the waves with a come hither look, nor would I plan to push them away.  Today I would allow myself the space to just FLOW with whatever came into my experience … I would welcome the thoughts too … like the No DisneyLand for you Blues that sometimes plays background music in my brain.

“No I would not give you false hope on this strange and mournful day” (Ziggy Marley performs) — I thought about my Mom today around the time she usually calls me on my brithday and wished her well, wherever she is.  In our soul’s eye everything is indeed only a motion away.

We are after all … each of us walking on thin ice … enjoying the pristine beauty of the moment before the image melts and we are transformed into something new.